So sometimes you just need to do whats better for your mind than your body because as I have learned over the past few years, it seems like those two things do not always agree. I went for a walk with my dog today, which is something that I have not done in at least a month. We live in a beautiful area of northern Michigan and it has been very disappointing to be up here surrounded by amazing trails, wildlife, and Lake Superior, and not be able to enjoy any of it. This past summer me and my husband went swimming a lot, which was fun and something that did not make my hip hurt too bad. But obviously, summer turned to fall and fall to winter which means no more swimming in the lake, but left lots of time to enjoy the trails close to our home. Unfortunately for me, it was around fall that my hips started acting up really bad again and I was unable to go for many walks. Being cooped up in the house though has been hard. Its difficult to want so bad to do things but know that if you do them you will pay the price and be in a lot of pain either during or after.
So today I went for a walk with the dog in the snow on the trails. It was great to be out in the woods playing with my dog, who loves snow. It was good for my mind too as I am about three weeks away from surgery and am beginning to get really nervous. I am not so concerned about surgery itself, its just the uncertainty of it working and the hard recovery that comes afterwards. I am trying to be as prepared as possible, but at the same time, there is only so much that you can do until its just time for surgery and what is will be.
I was also doing some research on antroverted femurs and how it effects people and found some articles that basically state that having this condition often makes your feet and knees point inward so making them point outward is very hard and causes stress on your hips. Well, of course, when riding horses you are suppose to ride with your heels down and toes outward, putting as much of you calf as possible on the horses side for stability. I don't wonder if 1) falling off a horse and landing on my hips when I was 16 caused some of these problems because I was young and still growing and 2) by always pushing my heels down and toes out that there was lots of stress on my hips, which did them no favors. Its very frustrating not knowing exactly what caused all this to happen, so how do you know what to avoid in the future? These are just some of my theories anyways.
So, really, nothing new, just some thoughts. Hope everyone is well and pain free! Its almost a new year, a time to turn the page and have a clean slate, right?